I'm having trouble realizing that I have 2.5 weeks until hawaii. haha. I mean I'm so super stoked but I feel like its not real though still. Its awesome that I get to go to hawaii but I'm really honestly just ready to see erik again. Everyone is always asking me how I'm able to deal with him being so far away and all I can say is I don't know because I really don't. I'm going through major withdrawals yes but I haven't had a major break down yet. I feel like its coming but I think it will happen after I get back home from hawaii. I know once I go out there I won't want to leave him for nothing in the world. He makes me feel incredible and all I want is to be with him. Spend the rest of my life with him. I know he wants me to go back to school and yes I do too but if it doesn't work out that I can go back I'm really going to have trouble staying here. All I'll do is be this sadden person who's always missing him and smiles everyday to try and fake it through. =(
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