you'll always be my thunder so bring on the rain

I honestly don't know what I'm going to do once you leave. You're going to be so far away and I'm going to be so upset that I won't be able to talk to you for like a month and a half and its going to suck more than anything. I'm trusting you with my whole heart and I pray that you won't screw me over. When I said I wanted to keep you forever I meant it. I just hope you want to keep me for just as long too. I love you.

the smoke it sank into my skin

I've finally realized how often I let my insecurities take over and make me freak out and I'm going to try and put a stop to it. I was so upset and didn't know what to do last night because I let certain things get to me. I was locking myself and my feelings up and away from erik because I was feeling so insecure. But being the amazing boy he is, he knew something was wrong with me and begged me to talk to him about it and after getting it off my chest for the most part and talking to him I felt a thousand times better. I've never had someone care so sincerely much for me in my life. He can comfort me by saying and doing the littlest things. He notices things that I don't expect him to notice and all I can do is adore him for it. He makes me so estatically happy and I want to spend forever with him. Erik Benjamin Gustafson, I love you.

its clear in my head, i'm screaming for something...

"The first degree was a riot
You were making sure
My lesson's learned
I'm not ashamed but I'm trying
I've come to expect the standards you have set...
Tell me just how dangerous is second best
You've settled for less and I'm sure you'll settle again"

help me come back down high above the clouds

I don't mean to run
But Every time you come around
I Feel more alive, than ever
And I guess it's too much
Maybe we're too young
And I don't even know what's real
But I know I never...

Wanted anything so bad
I've never wanted anyone so bad

If I let you love me
Be the one adored
Would you go all the way
Be the one I'm looking for