the smoke it sank into my skin

I've finally realized how often I let my insecurities take over and make me freak out and I'm going to try and put a stop to it. I was so upset and didn't know what to do last night because I let certain things get to me. I was locking myself and my feelings up and away from erik because I was feeling so insecure. But being the amazing boy he is, he knew something was wrong with me and begged me to talk to him about it and after getting it off my chest for the most part and talking to him I felt a thousand times better. I've never had someone care so sincerely much for me in my life. He can comfort me by saying and doing the littlest things. He notices things that I don't expect him to notice and all I can do is adore him for it. He makes me so estatically happy and I want to spend forever with him. Erik Benjamin Gustafson, I love you.