i love you so much, do me a favor baby don't reply cause i can dish it out but i can't take it

Ah! Chris and I got to see mewithoutyou, thrice and... brand new! =D Of course I was wayy excited but I wish my becca was there! The show was awesome and I've NeVeR been so packed at a show in my life but it was soo goooood. I don't know why but I absolutely love the rush of being in the middle of hundreds of people screaming lyrics at the top of their lungs and jumping up and down and going crazy. Its the one of the best feelings in the world. Its like you're all pissy at all the jack asses and little 12 year old kids that are there ruining the night but once that one band you're overly excited to see comes on its as if you're all best friends all of a sudden. Nobody thinks about it and you lose all your thoughts other than whats in front of you singing their hearts out. Ugh, i love it!

people would stop to hold their heads heavy

I didn't have time to update this last night because I was so sleepy so I'll do it now. Yesterday was pretty good. I got the job at Bowmans and I start next Wednesday so that's exciting. I'll now have money in a couple of weeks and be able to pay for cvp, my car, rent, credit cards. Ah, it will be nice.
Chris' Fall Wind Ensemble concert was last night and he did really good. Aw, and he looked so cute in his tux with the little bow tie. I put the pics on his myspace.
I'm super excited for next friday though because becca informed me that bedlight is paying at the brewery! =D
Also, just in case I haven't mentioned this before but I'm so obsessed with Gossip Girl! Its so damn good! I always get addicted to one show once another ends, lol. Like at first it was My So Called Life then it was That 70's Show then it was America's Next Top Model which I do still watch and now Gossip Girl. I have all the episodes for these shows too! =X
Maybe I'm obsessed with a fairy tale life. Everything going wrong but still working out in the end..hm..eh. I need to be famous that's what it is, haha. I got it! I'll write a super sweet book and make lots of money from it! =P
Well that's all for now kids.

-xoxo

All we need is a little bit of momentum

So the xanga was gonna come back until becca made one of these and I have to say that I like this much better! This is definitely going to be my new online confessional. Here we go!
I've been in such a emo kid mood lately. I've been listening to music all day, i've been writing non stop, online and in my journal. And yes, I do have a journal. Always have and always will. Its how I release my stress.
But like i was saying, music music music! I found this super awesome song today to and I'm in love with it! --->

I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go.
These words are my heart and soul,
I hold on to this moment you know.
Cause I'd bleed my heart out to show, that I won't let go.

Its beautiful and strong and meaningful and its perfect. Just like "Only One", I can listen to it over and over again and still feel the same way about it. It makes you want to scream and yell at the world "hey look at me! I'm right here and I fucking love you!" Ah, but I suppose I should stop being so me now and try and sleep.