where do i go from here?

Things are horrible. There's nothing but fighting and apathy all at the same time. Jenny came and visited me and even she was able to call out stuff that I have been feeling for a while now and she knew nothing of the situation. I want more than anything for everything to play out right in the end but I feel like its a roller coaster battle they may never end.

On top of it all, I'm lonelier than ever. I've been living here for over 6 months and I don't have even one friend. I have Evan and Erik when he's around and that's it. I have no one to talk to or pour my heart out to or just hang out with. Nothing, no one. There's no social events for me to go to, I'm not working much, and I just found out that Arizona is going to classify me as an "out of state" resident and charge me tuition at that rate which means I won't be going back to school as planned either unless I take out loans.

I'm lost and disconnected from everyone and everything. I feel like a robot just repeating the same day over and over again.