the love in my life

I want a second baby soooo bad. I think about it constantly. I've wanted one since Evan was 8 months old and I thought someone else was on bored with it or at least he pretended to be. The plan shifted to try for a second when Evan was 1.5 years old then pushed to 2 years old and now I don't see it happening at all. Evan is all the happiness in my life, he makes feel incredible knowing that something so amazing could actually exist. I just don't know how anyone could not want to multiply that?! Its that greatest gift I've ever received and I just want a house full of babies at this point. I'm sure I'll change my mind on that last part but still. Not to mention I'm sooooo incredibly jealous of my friends because they all have two and some counting! Their husbands actually are actually excited by the thought of a new child coming into their lives where mine shuns the idea of it. I just don't understand it at all. I'm so thankful for Evan and would love nothing more than to have a sibling for him to grow up with and share his secrets to and learn to share better and love someone on his level. I'm not sure that day is coming though and it makes not only my heart hurt for myself but for him as well. :/