this story's old but it goes on and on until we disappear

Ah! Why am I a stupid ass girl?! I don't know what to think about this whole situation. I've never been as "awe" as I am now...not even with DKW. I mean don 't get me wrong he is awesome as well but this time its different. I feel like this is my chance to break away and move on to a new life with bigger and better things but I know its just not going to happen for me. The guy I'm falling for is amazing and I just can't get enough of him. I've never had anyone make me feel like this in a VERY long time. He constantly smothers me with kisses and holds me and cuddles me and makes me feel like I'm something important to him. Even with his friends, he's not embarassed to show his affection to me. I just want to be his, I want that power to say I am. I mean yes, I could marry him and get free money but I would want him to marry me for more than just money reasons. I can tell that I mean more than just money to him, I can see it in his eyes and the way he treats me but I don't know. I think I'm just being a stupid girl about the whole situation. When I try to think about it rationally I think maybe I'm just trying to rush things. I'm tired of waiting like I've stated to many people time and time again. I want to be happy and married and stable and feel loved by that one person who makes me feel like the rest of the world doesn't matter to them. *sigh*